😨 What am I afraid of?

It's been 3:20 in the morning and I am not able to sleep. Ofcourse not a new thing for me. This continuous conversation that goes on my mind have never let me sleep peacefully. Those people in my mind never got tired of talking to each other. They are so many and I ( not sure what 'I' means) am the judge. I have to make them clear . I have to give explaination to those people that are residing in my mind , asking me questions continuously. Peculiar, isn't. I mean , its me whole time, I create those people , I let them ask me questions and then I myself give the answer. So what made me afraid? I am afraid to lose the reality. I am afraid that this world i created in my mind will get over me. It imprints me. My reality vanishes , I am not able to be what I want to be. I am afraid that i will lose people, I will lose the world. I have nobody to hold me. I am not sure anybody out there can really calm me down . Am I alone ? Well no, i believe in some supreme soul , someone who has made me , made me like this anyhow. Someone who will ultimately help me by letting me survive or let me die peacefully.